It is the
end of spring and the fires have been packed away for the year. The air is thick with warmth and moisture;
the moisture will remain for a few more short weeks before the ravages of
summer arrive. The day is unusually
clouded. The clouds, friendly and plump in
character confirm the muted enclosure of the landscape. On days like these everything is quiet, even
the little translucent moths are less hurried than usual. The dreamy charm of the landscape is
enhanced, by the beginning of the roses unfurling. The old roses have begun to tumble over the
mossed stone walls, their thin thorny stems heavy with bloom. This short and spectacular display I have
waited for all year will be over soon but for now we are enclosed in a world of
petals shocking pink, or bright garish lipstick red, or purest snow, white. The new roses of apricot and cream planted to
surround the kitchen garden are just swelling in bud and I will see them for
the first time this year. The smell of
roses drifts through every window, lifted as it were from the opening petals by
the humidity and heat. I find myself
doing any job that allows me to see them and smell them. It is almost impossible to step away from
their frivolous decadent generosity so delicate in this, timeworn part of the
world.
The day is
almost tropical in quality and recalls a garden I grew up in. A garden of mango trees that towered over my
head the fruit tantalizingly out of reach, and banana groves, of bougainvillea
falling over walls all the colours of the rainbow echoed in their soft tissue
like bracts. In my imagination I can see
a man walking and watering and weeding and preening and primping over his
plants. I can almost smell him warm and
salted from the tropical heat. I can see
his face creased with concentration determined to grow fine roses in spite of
the inappropriate climate. Sitting here
it is amusing to think he tried to grow roses in his bountiful garden when bougainvillea
grew like a weed. Here I am thinking of
how to grow a little bougainvillea in this temperate climate when roses grow
like weeds. It is always the same with
us gardeners, the desire to grow the impossible because a plant reminds us of
someone or a scene or a memory, or is just so beautiful that our desire is
ignited and we just have to have it.
I remember
him waking and stretching in the morning, before donning his filthy old work
clothes, sharpening his knife on an old belt head bowed and face in deep
concentration not even his breadth could be heard. He never went out before greeting his pack of
dogs, gathering his tools and stepping out into his landscape to fulfill his
ever growing desire for heaven on earth.
He demanded that I read my dictionary and anytime he came into a room I
found myself sitting bolt upright, immediately wanting to look, well,
occupied. Laziness was not to be
tolerated, and yet, he never moved quickly, he never spoke quickly, he didn’t
even blink quickly. He was powerful and
a little scary, but I can find no memory of him raising his voice to me. When or rather if the day’s work was
completed successfully and his light shone on you, you wanted to stay in it
forever. To me he was a typical gardener
where his every mood was so linked to the successful growth of his plants. This man was my Grandfather, who I liked to
call Mac Dada. He was one of my first
gardening teachers and yet he never said a word to me of plants, other than,
“Go eat the cherries or go pick some mangos” always words to encourage a taste
filled relationship so to speak. I watched
him, working tirelessly on his land, sweating profusely with the effort to
assist nature and to see emerging from the soil some seed that had first formed
in his imagination. To my eyes, it
seemed that some great symphony occurred between him and the soil, his subtle
refined breathing, music to the plant matter that eagerly rose from the ground
just to please him. What he did with
that landscape over his lifetime could only be said to be miraculous, and yet
not many people will ever see his garden or what his human hands made of that
place. Perhaps this is the way that the
greatest gardeners are, hidden and secret.
My
grandfather died today. I am very far
away from that garden and sad that I never got to see him for one last time or
talk with him about my growing obsession with plants. As I sit here at the computer with my dogs
curled at my feet and the fine old roses falling over the walls I know that I
owe a great deal of my life to the time that I lived with him in the West
Indies. Goodbye Dada, you were a
wonderful gardener, I watched you turn a barren hard piece of land into a
virtual paradise through tireless effort.
I hope to be as dedicated a gardener as you were. Today each petal of the roses that hits the
ground will be a prayer for you, I hope that wherever you are now there is a
garden without weeds or little things that bite, where all is crystal clear and
growing on a wish and a breadth.
Today also
another garden is being left behind.
Andy’s Mum and Dad will be leaving their beautiful London garden, a
paradise of dedication of nearly half a century. It was in this Dulwich garden
that I first bowed down and gazed up into the cheeky face of my very first
daffodil. It is so very hard to leave
one’s garden behind, but then all life moves on to new gardens and new planting
opportunities.
“And all
shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well. When the tongues of flame are in-folded. Into the crowned knot of fire. And the fire
and the rose are one.” T.S. Eliot
Boa Viagem
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